The Person I Find Hard to Help

Let's talk about this person I've known for almost my whole life. Actually, there's this group of us. We can be considered quite close cause we see each other quite often. This particular person I'll be talking about, I'll name her J.

Okay, I'm not THT close to her compared to how close I am with the rest of them. The reason why, is because J hardly mingles with us tht much due to her own reasons. The thing here is, among all of us, she's the least favourite one. Everyone talks about her, mostly the OTHER 3. In the beginning, I got myself to agree with whtever the rest were saying about her because it all seemed true. Sometimes, I have to say tht she somehow deserved all tht. It's just all quite complicating. BUT nowadays, I find myself in the position where I'm there when she's being mocked/hated/gossiped about and I disagree with whtever tht was being 'discussed'.

The scenario here is that, the other 3, somehow has something against her, more than anyone else in the whole wide world and I don't really know why. Recently, the same thing happened. J was being gossiped about. It's was SO hard for me because J was actually right beside me when one of the other 3, I'll name her L, messaged me and talked about her (she was beside me too. I was basically in the middle of them). It's hard to believe, but yeah tht happened. At the same time, J was telling me about how disappointed she was with L because of how much she has changed and all tht. When I read the msg, L actually said that she hates J. It's just SO wrong because at that time, J sounded like she cares for L but at the same time L's telling me how much she despises J and why.

One more thing, the other 3 I was talking about, they would text each other, pass the phone among themselves in front of the rest of us, giggle and whisper like there aren't anyone around. I find that really rude and uncivilised. How do you expect people to react when tht happens almost everytime there's an outing together? Most of the time, they'll talk about J. I know tht because sometimes they'll show me wht they typed down. I feel like I shoud tell them off, saying tht whtever they're doing is just completely wrong but another part of me would just wanna remain silent and not get involved in any way. J's obviously the victim in this whole issue. Everytime I see her when there's an outing together, I'll think of the things she was gossiped about and it all seemed very wrong and there's just nothing I can do about it. I feel sorry for J.

I even hate myself for being dragged into their conversation whenever they want to have one about J. There was another time when we were all called into a room, by the other 3 of them to gossip about J. "Sharon, faster come in. Lock the door." When I've entered, they told me, "we're gossiping about J." *giggles* UGH! I find that so disgusting and the worst part is, I sat with them throughout the whole 'session'.

They know VERY WELL that gossiping is wrong but yet they talk like as if they did not have any conscience at all! When I keep quiet during their 'session', I'll be asked if I agree with them. All I could do was give a nonchalant smile/laugh.

I can't stand up for J nor can I stand up for what I believe in. I have no idea what I should do the next time it happens again and trust me, tht wouldnt be far from now. Sigh.

Guess tht's all I'm willing to share. Lol, this so sounds like as I'm writing to Thelma of The Star.

p/s: GOSSIPING IS REALLY BAD FOR YOURSELF AND ALSO OTHERS BECAUSE IN THE END, YOU'LL COME TO REALISE THAT THE REAL LOSER IS NOBODY ELSE BUT YOU. (I'm not saying that I don't gossip)

p/s: The post above has nothing to do with the grp of friends I have in school.


signing off - paperbag

I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE TALK TO ME WITH THEIR BREATH BLOWING IN MY FACE! I SO MEAN THIS. I'VE SUFFERED ENOUGH AND I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE.

I think it's clear enough this time. For example, when one can't hear what I said exactly, and asks 'har?'. It's like as if the amount of breath coming out of one's mouth can't be controlled. It'll usually be like this: (hhhaaahhhh..?? -big amount of breath which contains i-dont-know-what gets blown right into my face-) if u get what I mean. When this happens too often, I'll have no choice but to try to hold my breath when that person starts talking, in case the same thing happens again. I know I'm mean and I know people don't do that on purpose and I also know I might even do that at times =/ but I just can't help it. I suffered from too much of that for today.

I hope this won't scare people off and they end up not talking to me. I don't mean it that way =D

cheers everyone! - paperbag

DESPERATE

I know i know. I have not been around for ages, but now I'm back for a reason. I STILL HAVE 10 MORE UGLY COUPONS TO SELL for canteen day. Please contact me if you need any. Help me out now! I have to give in on MONDAY already.

HARI KANTIN
SMK PEREMPUAN METHODIST
JALAN RAYA BARAT, KLANG

30 JUN 2007
9.00 PAGI - 3.00 PETANG

RM5.OO

Need any just contact me on +60172750092 okay? Help out. Help me, Help my school and help me from putting out my own money! LoL

lost and not found

woah! i actually forgot our username... ahha!

i'm here to tell u guys one very bad news.. I LOST MY PHONE! My beloved phone! ugh..

yea, my W900.. gosh, how sad.. my pictures and videos all gone! just like tht..

it was raining yesterday and there was no parking.. so i had to park further away. when we got down the car, we ran like some babi hutan and i used my handbag to cover my head.. i heard coins dropping but i didnt hear a single sound of my phone dropping! so, i thought it was still there and i didnt bother checking lah. after about half an hour only i realised it was missing.. we searched everywhere but couldnt find. it was still raining u know?? imagine us finding with a small black umbrella along the road and it was so dark summore.. gosh, i felt so like crying! ahha.. my siawted pictures with the girls all gone just like tht.. and i just found out my phone has videoDj.. it's so interesting.. and now?? argh!

i was so scared my mom's gonna shout at me in front of everyone when she found out. luckily, she didnt..im good in manja-ing sometimes. lol! she just said "yea la, u purposely wan wat. know i got financial prob now and u wanna do this to me" keke.. i feel bad okay! but im not getting new phone lar.. using my k700.. it's damn old already kay!

and yea, hwei ping's so gonna scold me. i owe her some information on stars(est project). u know, in order not to get more scoldings from my mom, i had to help her at coffee shop ler.. and i only reached home at about 1230. so, didnt have time to find la.. haih.. sorry, ping! (i doubt she's gonna read this also lah)

im currently using another number.. but getting my number back later.. no one's gonna call me rite?? haih, i know.. so, no point telling u guys the number im using now rite?? haha

oh yea, i missed out one part.. when i reached home and msged sharon bout what happenned and the number im using, she scolded me! ahha.. she called and msged me a lot of times.. cuz she thought i was involved in that lorry accident.. the one at the rooundabout near convent.. im TOUCHED, sharon! (she said i hve problems showing affection.. who said so??? lol)

anyway, happy father's day!

-ywen-

happy birthday, mun khea!

she's 21 already.. woah! ahha.. dont know much bout u.. so, not gonna write long.. heh. anyways, happy 21st birthday! enjoy ur day.. god bless

-yw-