Buses and Trains

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I wanna do it again

What I hate people do (and I do)

I hate it when I'm dragged into your issues.

I hate you for making me the middleman between you.

I hate you for laughing at me when I'm being serious.

I hate you for rubbing into my face of what I don't have.

I hate you for turning things around and making yourself sound like the victim.

I hate having to ask you.

I hate myself for the way I deal with problems. Which is by not dealing with it at all.

I hate myself for resorting to temporary highs to get over it.

I hate myself for not feeling.

And lastly,

I hate that I have so many things to hate.

Anyway-Martina McBride

You can spend your whole life building
Something from nothin'
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway

You can chase a dream
That seems so out of reach
And you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway

God is great
But sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anywayI do it anyway

This world's gone crazy
It's hard to believe
That tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway

You can love someone with all your heart
For all the right reasons
In a moment they can choose to walk away
Love 'em anyway

God is great
But sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway

Yea - I do it anyway

You can pour your soul out singing
A song you believe in
That tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway
Yea, sing it anyway

Yeah, yeah!

I sing
I dream
I love anyway

The Cinema Experience

I was just remembering the cinema incident and thought of blogging about it. Remember how traumatizing it was sharon and cy??

Anywayy, cy, sharon and me went to watch Paul Blart: Mall cop awhile back at bukit tinggi cinema. Because cy came late, we all ended up getting seats near the front. And we had the corner area, so cy sat next to the aisle, sharon in the middle with me on her left. When I turned to see who was sitting on the other side of me, I saw two small boys. While the trailers were going on, this little buggers got up and went in front and exchanged their seats with two big buggers. So now I had 2 big nuts next to me. Everything was going fine.

Until one of the buggers next to me SUDDENLY bursts out laughing explosively. Right after that, another idiot laughs even louder at the other side of the cinema. Hearing that, my seat mate gives out another bellowing noisy laugh. This goes on.

They were having a FUCKING LAUGHING COMPETITION. Right in the middle of a public cinema.

The first time he laughed, I nearly jumped out of my seat in shock. I looked at Sharon, her mouth open with popcorn falling. And the 2nd time he did it, I was getting annoyed already.

Immediately after that, he leans towards me and whispers "Eh you mind ah, if i laugh like this loud? Can ah?"

WTF U WANT ME TO SAYYY???? OF CORSE I MIND LA U BLOODY JAKUN!!!

But i just kept calm and said "It be better if you didn't".
"Oh yessar? Sorry sorry". And then he comes even closer and offers his bucket of popcorn to me (as a peace offering??). I decline and he practically comes on top of my lap to offer Sharon, whose next to me, the popcorn. Sharon just turns away. And he continues holding the damn popcorn until I push it away and say "It's ok. We already have popcorn".

Do u see how civilised I am to crazy nutjobs like this??

So we continue watching our movie. Since it was a comedy, every friggin second was punctuated with those idiots competing with each others laughing volume. I could hear cy, beside sharon, going Shhhh Shhhhh! But obviously, such kampung ppl don't understand stuff like this.

And then later on, as I lift my ice lemon tea from the holder to drink, the idiot immediately grabs his drink and holds it up towards me.
"Cheers!!" he announces brightly.
Walawehhh, how tak tahu malu can u be? He continues to wait for my response so I quickly touch my drink to his and mutter cheers.

When the movie was over, cy, sharon and me jump out of our seats and run out of the cinema.

Like a glass vase

Ugh. I feel so disappointed with myself. As it is, it's already so hard to earn my parents confidence in me and I so carelessly and stupidly broke that trust. I don't know how long its gonna take to redeem myself in their eyes again. Sigh.

ps: Sharonnnnn! how ur parents trust u to go out even after u break ur curfew sooo many times?? haha

tick tock

To live your life with true meaning, or to just sweep off challenges life throws at you because complacency becomes a big part of you that moving forward and making a difference seem like a thousand miles away.


"It's alright to lose yourself sometimes, it's just how you find what makes you, you again."

What is that one thing you would never compromise with, that one thing you will want to leave behind once life sweeps you off its course?


What is your one true purpose in life?

I found me again

You know, sometimes, being the heartless, selfish bitch can be the best thing that ever happened to you. You don’t get yourself in a situation where your emotions are strongly involved so you rarely get hurt. And that saves you helluva lot of pain and trouble.

And just say you decide to open up for once, and you end up getting hurt, but you know you can easily move on. Just like that line from Kanye’s single Stronger; “That don’t kill me, can only make me stronger”. So you made a mistake. Everyone does. But you learn from your past experiences knowing that you have the power to change what happens next.

And there are always going to be losers who’ll try to cause problems for you just to defend their ego. But why care what they think? You don’t change who you are just to fit in. You own your life, you don’t live it for others. So go ahead and set your standards high and don’t compromise your principles for anyone. When you know you deserve more, don’t settle for anything less. Don’t ever undermine your self-worth cause you are and always will be perfection.

you make it real-james morrison

it's been so long since we last have 'pillow talk'.

i think we should have sleepovers!

i miss those times...!

you all made me realise something so important that i've long forgotten.

-ywen-