What I hate people do (and I do)

I hate it when I'm dragged into your issues.

I hate you for making me the middleman between you.

I hate you for laughing at me when I'm being serious.

I hate you for rubbing into my face of what I don't have.

I hate you for turning things around and making yourself sound like the victim.

I hate having to ask you.

I hate myself for the way I deal with problems. Which is by not dealing with it at all.

I hate myself for resorting to temporary highs to get over it.

I hate myself for not feeling.

And lastly,

I hate that I have so many things to hate.

Anyway-Martina McBride

You can spend your whole life building
Something from nothin'
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway

You can chase a dream
That seems so out of reach
And you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway

God is great
But sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anywayI do it anyway

This world's gone crazy
It's hard to believe
That tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway

You can love someone with all your heart
For all the right reasons
In a moment they can choose to walk away
Love 'em anyway

God is great
But sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway

Yea - I do it anyway

You can pour your soul out singing
A song you believe in
That tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway
Yea, sing it anyway

Yeah, yeah!

I sing
I dream
I love anyway

too close for comfort

... and so, it is like that one song you fall in love with. That one song you come across by chance. Then, it becomes that one song you choose not to listen to over and over again, just so you will never get tired of it.

But then again, it is on repeat.

Only to realize, that you can listen to it over and over again. All day long, all week, all year round even. Anytime, at any given day. And find that it never grows old. You say, it feels like heaven.

Serendipity, they say.

I, simply just never want to face the truth.

<3

The Cinema Experience

I was just remembering the cinema incident and thought of blogging about it. Remember how traumatizing it was sharon and cy??

Anywayy, cy, sharon and me went to watch Paul Blart: Mall cop awhile back at bukit tinggi cinema. Because cy came late, we all ended up getting seats near the front. And we had the corner area, so cy sat next to the aisle, sharon in the middle with me on her left. When I turned to see who was sitting on the other side of me, I saw two small boys. While the trailers were going on, this little buggers got up and went in front and exchanged their seats with two big buggers. So now I had 2 big nuts next to me. Everything was going fine.

Until one of the buggers next to me SUDDENLY bursts out laughing explosively. Right after that, another idiot laughs even louder at the other side of the cinema. Hearing that, my seat mate gives out another bellowing noisy laugh. This goes on.

They were having a FUCKING LAUGHING COMPETITION. Right in the middle of a public cinema.

The first time he laughed, I nearly jumped out of my seat in shock. I looked at Sharon, her mouth open with popcorn falling. And the 2nd time he did it, I was getting annoyed already.

Immediately after that, he leans towards me and whispers "Eh you mind ah, if i laugh like this loud? Can ah?"

WTF U WANT ME TO SAYYY???? OF CORSE I MIND LA U BLOODY JAKUN!!!

But i just kept calm and said "It be better if you didn't".
"Oh yessar? Sorry sorry". And then he comes even closer and offers his bucket of popcorn to me (as a peace offering??). I decline and he practically comes on top of my lap to offer Sharon, whose next to me, the popcorn. Sharon just turns away. And he continues holding the damn popcorn until I push it away and say "It's ok. We already have popcorn".

Do u see how civilised I am to crazy nutjobs like this??

So we continue watching our movie. Since it was a comedy, every friggin second was punctuated with those idiots competing with each others laughing volume. I could hear cy, beside sharon, going Shhhh Shhhhh! But obviously, such kampung ppl don't understand stuff like this.

And then later on, as I lift my ice lemon tea from the holder to drink, the idiot immediately grabs his drink and holds it up towards me.
"Cheers!!" he announces brightly.
Walawehhh, how tak tahu malu can u be? He continues to wait for my response so I quickly touch my drink to his and mutter cheers.

When the movie was over, cy, sharon and me jump out of our seats and run out of the cinema.