Because We Love: February 2008

Hello everyone! okay I'm gonna start this post with a testimony. and yes, it's regarding how I've experienced God's faithfulness recently, like last week starting from Monday.

I've been having a tough time battling with my emotions and thoughts last week. It was crazy. I couldn't eat and sleep (i think i lost weight that week HAHA). All I did was think and think and think? Maybe a few times of tears but I just couldn't stop myself from all that. It was kind of a personal thing although I went to a few people to talk to. I didn't really mention why I was reacting that way (not that I really knew what was wrong at tht particular time). So I turned to Him and started pouring it all out, asking for His favour upon me to just stop all the nonsense because it was really too much for me. I can't remember me being that desperate before haha. I was practically crying out la ok. I know it sounds so damn drama but really wan! I soooo wasn't myself. It began on Monday when I suddenly felt so vulnerable and emotionally distressed. I thought it was my hormones so I just sucked it up la. Then came Tuesday, wah can die I tell you. I was trying to think positive about whatever that was going on in my mind and in college but none of that worked. But I didn't give up praying about it. I grew even more desperate so I went to a few friends to talk to and I'm really appreciative for some of you who helped me through. Then thank God there was dinner with a couple of friends on Wednesday night and that helped me get things off my mind but still not completely. I was looking forward to CF the next day cause I was really expecting some sort of feedback about what I was going through. True enough, the speaker that day spoke about understanding TRIALS. I was like..... stunned+sooooo thankful+relieved+touched+moved. haha. I went home thinking back about what the pastor preached about and I felt so encouraged. But to be honest, that didn't completely solve the things I was going through la. So I continued praying and expecting a message from pastor Ryan on saturday during youth service. Even during Praise and Worship, when the worship leader sang Amazing grace(my chains are gone), I already broke down but I was controlling so very hard. I was singing it, believing that by the next week, I'll move on really well although things might not come my way again. I had alot of faith, by the weekend because I know He definitely was there. I know whatever I was going through was part of growing up and all but it also proved that He listens. By Sunday night, I told myself that I'm gonna give a testimony about this because I will handle things much better and next week would be great.

True enough, this week was awesome for me. I had a presentation on Monday and it was an important one. I got nervous but it got better in the middle of it and the group I spoke to responded really well. Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday were not a drag at all and I had fun with the company in college. This really means alot to me because the week before, I never ever want to go through it again. Not only that, last week showed me so many things that I never really took note of. I realised that I have so many friends I can turn to (love you guys!) when I'm going through hard times, I realised that I have a comforting family to come home to and I experienced the best thing with Him. So.. yup! that's about all I have to say. haha.

One way, Jesus! :)
I know I said I'll START this post with a testimony but I think I'll talk about other things in another post, since the length's quite long already. lol. If got comments, please leave it here and not the tagboard ok? Don't want it to be filled with comments regarding this post. Thanks!

Random (meaning dont bother asking me about it later): you know sometimes you wanna do something but you know it's not right so you dont do it. you know sometimes you wanna be that person but you know you can't so you dont? mmhmm.. mysterious.. hahaha.

K bye!