it's my rerun.

since when was The Fray so easy to relate to. they've ALWAYS been my all-time favourite but i haven't been listening to them for a while now.
so the other day while driving home, i heard their new single on radio and so i went home putting them on replay again. Isaac Slade's voice is to die for. it was like as if he was singing about/to me HAHA. one can only dream, shaddup lah.


You swear you recall nothing at all
That could make you come back down
You made up your mind to leave it all behind
Now you're forced to fight it out

You left something undone, it's now your rerun
It's the one you can't erase
You should have made it right, so you wouldn't have to fight
To put a smile back on your face

You fall away from your past
But it's following you
You fall away from your past
But it's following you
You fall away
You fall away

--

now, this song is on replay.
and i should've told u this last night, but i didn't. instead, all i told you was complete utter bullshit.


have a great new year everyone!
xx.

p/s: do u think im making swipe a lil too personal (i dont even have to type my name because i know you know who types like this by now). of course i'm the only one doing it because everyone else has their own blog and i refuse to make one. but it feels like it shouldn't be! dammit. everyone blog personal stuff also laaa. heh.

i miss you guys!




edit (totally unrelated) : feels good to know yet not know sometimes.

the aftermath.

it was a greaaaattttt time with the girls today during christmas dinner. it has to be something we'll never forget (not forgetting, the crazy recordings we made afterwards). it was made of good food, good laughters, GREAT PEOPLE! haha. they all went home around 1am.

i'm not exactly aware of what im saying right now ; ) but i know it's 4.20 am now and i still have company at home. probably McD's at 8am later, i don't know.

floats, floats, floats. that's what late nights make you feel.

harharhar wth. pictures of dinner will be up soon! pressure ywen :D

love you girls! <3,
sharon.

still going strong

while i was reading the old posts, i can't help feeling so freaking glad that things turned out so much better than how we thought back then. we thought all of us are not gonna be close n stuffs anymore. yea, we're not THAT close anymore but we're close enough. everyone of us still try to make it for our friday nights and we still know what's happening around all of us.

we have new friends, new groups, new interests, everything. but deep down, we know that our main friends are the ones who were there when we were so childish and CRAZY. they're the ones who had seen so many flaws and had misunderstood one another so many times but are still here with us. i hope this group of friends will still be this way in many years to come.

we've showed the world and proved to ourselves that changes cant change the friendship we shared. and we'll continue to do that. i hope.

it's been a year now since we left high school. we've had our ups and downs. we've argued and made up. we've been angry with each other and have forgiven one another. we've learnt so much together. we've learnt to let go some stuffs and hang on to some. and we've all grown up!

and the best thing is we're all still friends. close friends.


it feels a lil weird now that im talking about this like how we used to back then. a lil childish also. haha.. but i realised that we dont talk about it as often anymore.. so why not! i dont mind pple saying stuffs behind. im proud to tell the world that i have the best group of friends ever!

but actually, i've not grown much also la.. im still as childish. err, but i've grown a LIL wider lar. and more flabby. LOL

anyways, we were out to celebrate Jay's birthday today. pictures will be up soon! i hope.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, JAY!!!

-ywen-

till it happens to you.

Sometimes we search for the deepest things but at the end of the day, it is who really are, that we seek for. We seek for independence and freedom and sometimes we seek life's motivation to continue living. We seek for reasons to live because sometimes life gets to us at our lowest point.
Sometimes we feel afraid, but it's alright. Because that's what keeps us going. We learn to let go of things, because we know we have to move forward in hopes that there are so many things ahead awaiting for us. We have that tiny speck of hope and faith that there are bigger things ahead and letting go of the things now would bring us a greater future.

So sometimes we ask, what if there isn't. What if we end up being wrong about all the perceptions we might have right now. What if we already have what we are supposed to have but thinking there might be something bigger out there, made us decide on the biggest mistake of our life.

So. What if? Because you and I, we never know.

--

There's a little truth between those words we've spoken
Don't ask me where I'm heading
Because I don't know anymore.

Life's ALL about seeking : )


<3, sharon.

Jingle Jiggly Bell

A year ago, morons put up Christmas tree together while I slept like a pig.

Now, a year have gone by, and this time, we put it up together but yw slept half way through. How the year have gone by. It seemed like I was blogging about it just yesterday. Exaggerating only though cause I cannot recall what I posted. (=

To cut things short, here are the pictures of the beautiful tree we put up. Credits to Amelia, Sharon, her mom, ME, Yw, and Jay.




Theme this year is GOLD. Thought of putting either red or silver together but it looks perfect just like that. It looks much better in reality because sometimes pictures don't tell everything, ya know? Those little details you can see with your eyes rather than capturing of a camera.

Pictures are taken with my phone. Others are in Jay's phone so will put it up when I get it.

Putting it up together just automatically creates a stronger thread between us. Glad that even though everyone is in college now, we still manage to do something to bring a stronger meaning of FRIENDSHIP.

This year's Christmas is gonna mean something, although Jay won't be around. However, she still must get us presents. =)

Liven up the Christmassie atmosphere people. It's time to do it.


-ping-

I fear.. Time.

Here's a quickie.

So, I was talking to my sister about how awesome it felt when it was the last day of SPM last year. I was telling her what we all did together after my Bio paper (considering I was the only one in the group together with Marina taking it) and that you guys were all waiting in the car outside school, ready to leave and conquer the world like never before nyaha.

Then only it hit me tomorrow, it's going to be the last day of my Pre-U programme. ohmygaaawddd. Sorry la lagging a little. But seriously, it was just last year and right now I'm done with pre-u. WHAT THE HELL! This is shit scary. Okay talking shit. Nobody cares. But really, time passes too fast. Can't the world stop just for a moment.

Night after SPM. Damn poyo right. Haih. But not like we cared anyways.

Taken off Nicole's blog. (please don't kill me. i'm crediting you here :S)
Last day of class, 21st Nov 2008.

BYE!

Paint it Black

So, again...

HOW!?!?!?!?!?

ugh.

--

Becca and Ywen, we're going to do some good in Dec, yes?

"keep each other motivated okay!" says ywen. HAHA.

All the best everyone. It's the exams :)

It's another Birthday

So long never visited this blog. Now only I realized I didn't make my wish. SO, here it goes.

(16/11/08)

Dear BestFriend,
I know I'm a little late.
But here it is,
Happy Belated 18th Birthday
on the blog.

You have always meant something to me,
You always made my day a little brighter when it was gloomy.
You managed to hang on when I was ignorant.
I treasure every bit you sacrificed,
for this friendship that lasted so long,
and it will last,
FOREVER!!

I know you're going through lotsa hectic routines lately. Just hope you'll slow down a little and give yourself a pat on the back and say that you shouldn't push yourself too hard. Think about the ones who loves you, hun!

-ping

Might as well.

I need an optimist.

Hey, where did that light go?

..because every step you take, every decision you make, leaves a mark on your life.

if you want to make a difference, surround yourself with those who are not of you. if you want to make a difference, stand firm on your principles, continue believing in it, take a step of faith.


make that difference.

that was what I learned when I was 14.

---

omg it's november. next week's my finals. then it's goodbye sunway. and goodbye to so much more. it's heartbreaking.

oh and, badminton sucks balls these days. T_____T

paperbag ;)

tied together with a smile-taylor swift

Seems the only one who doesn't see your beauty
is the face in the mirror looking back at you
you walk around here thinking you're not pretty
but that's not true,
cause I know you...

chorus

hold on, baby you're losing it
the waters high,
you're jumping into it
and letting go
and no one knows that you cry,
but you don't tell anyone that you might not be the golden one
and your tied together with a smile
but you're coming undone

I guess it's true that love was all you wanted
cause you've given it away like it's extra change
hoping it will end up in his pocket
but he leaves you out like a penny in the rain
oh, cause it's not his price to pay
not his price to pay...

repeat chorus (2x)

you're tied together with a smile
but you're coming undone...
oh woah
goodbye, baby
with a smile, baby, baby.

-ywen-

Beyond This Door.

So they tell me about timing. What lies behind it, what it tells you, right at that moment when you need feedback.

Don't you see
that more than you could know or hope for
Lies beyond this door
Like a treasure buried deep it waits
To be discovered, waits to be released

Open up your heart
For just a moment let true freedom take its hold
And I promise you that what you'll find
Is more than what you've always preconceived

This life's not long
Like a breath it comes and goes
So unguard your heart
Let these walls around you fall

If you could see beyond the here and now
I know that everything would change
But you're hard and scarred by what the past
Has made you into
Shaped what you believe

I know you've been failed
And I know that you've tried
It's always the same
Time and time again

But you have to know
That nobody else
Can stand in your place
and face the crowds

--

Okay i know you guys have been asking me everyday in college about that list i'm suppose to make but i really don't have a list to make la. Not that i'm shy or anything, you know i can't wait to rip all of you off anyway ;) I'll come up with at least one thing by the end of this week ok. (what do you guys think about that room i want all by myself as a present? wanna make it come true? haha)

--

you know how sometimes you try coming up with so many awesome things to tell maybe, your close ones or whoever just to make yourself sound fine, like everything's rockin' and shit. But you obviously know it yourself that it's just because you don't wanna seem so vulnerable and low. Who're you kidding, really.

It's a busy month. I'm sure I'm not the only one who's stressing out. I need to list down the things i'm left to do for the semester before my finals:

-IB test TOMORROW
-Econs ISU essay on Friday
-IB video and presentation on Monday
-IDC presentation outline on Monday
-Econs seminar presentation on Tuesday
-IDC ISU presentation due Wednesday

Thanks to Shal for taking up a bigger task in our IDC preparation. This will pass. Yes, we will all be fine. Pfft.

Hello again, books.
sharon.

the hourglass.

if you were given memories and a lifetime, would you try going back to make it all happen again, or would you just treasure them as how they were and never ever try to relive it.

if it was, and still IS something you think of day and night, something that remains with you, would you, or would you rather not because of the things you fear might happen if you do. because sometimes, attempting to relive it might ruin it all.

i'm sorry, 2 am brain talking here.

--

before i log off and stop myself from babbling any further,

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, PING!

from all of us to you.

i know what you'd say. legal to puff more, yes? you know i'll also be there to make it even harder.
haha.

lotsa love, swipe.

angels among us - alabama

I was walking home from school on a cold winter's day
Took a shortcut through the woods and I lost my way
It was getting late and I was scared and alone
Then a kind old man took my hand and led me home
Mama couldn't see him, but he was standing there
But I knew in my heart, he was the answer to my prayers


Oh I believe there are angels among us
Sent down to us from somewhere up above
They come to you and me in our darkest hours
To show us how to liveTo teach us how to give
To guide us with a light of love


When life dealt troubled times and had me down on my knees
There's always been someone there to come along and comfort me
A kind word from a stranger to lend a helping hand
A phone call from a friend just to say I understand
Ain't it kind of funny at the dark end of the road
Someone lights the way with just a single ray of hope


Oh I believe there are angels among us
Sent down to us from somewhere up above
They come to you and me in our darkest hours
To show us how to live
To teach us how to give
To guide us with a light of love


They wear so many faces
Show up in the strangest places
Grace us with thier mercy
In our time of need


Oh I believe there are angels among us
Sent down to us from somewhere up above
They come to you and me in our darkest hours
To show us how to live
To teach us how to give
To guide us with a light of love

Then I'll Be Smiling

I hear the piano, I see the guitar. I see me, but I don't see the future. I long for more, I pray and hope for more. But, I still don't see the future. Well, of course not.

Sometimes I just need to know if there is still any hope left in doing what I do. But sometimes, I tell myself no matter what happens, I know I enjoyed trying to pursue my dream, and I will continue to enjoy. I choose to let who I am make up the moments in life and not the other way round. Because that dream we all have, that one dream that keeps us going, is our saving grace.

Sometimes that's all we need; to have that child-like faith.

In the end, dreams just scatter and fall like rain.
Because all we are, we are.

Matt Nathanson, all we are.

okay very fast one. i'm off to my books again after this. and mcd's with FGA fatties.

i think i'm being put to too many tests these days. tests on my tolerance and patience. exploitation stops when i say so. i'm sorry if you still don't get what i've been saying all the time. you're either that dumb or you're just bloody retarded. and i think blogs are scary. it's a legal "passport" to an activity called stalking. OKAY, in social terms, or should i say, from an ethical point of view, stalking is wrong. so don't come telling me stalking is fine. wait till you get your own stalker who does shit.

*squeals*


- sharon.

sitted under the table.

it's an inside thing.

mm yes i think this blog needs a new post. i'm really drenched right now so i don't know if this is actually going anywhere.

college has been so tiring for me la i can't take it. maybe it's because i haven't been getting enough sleep lately. and also the fact that i've been staying back almost everyday this week supposedly to study la but i end up wandering around college with everyone else, ditching mk and pf behind in random class(es). but it's funny how we get chased out from classes sometimes cause we don't have permission or something like that. and we'll be doing the same next week and YES hopefully i'd actually start studying by tomorrow cause i've got a freaking econs test coming up again. i know no shit about macro. i dread Dr Z's classss....

okay i know you don't wanna read what i have to say because i don't know what else to say either. random pictures then!

GASP. i just realized i look so much like my dad in this picture =S

okay time to go molest my bed now.
sharon, xo.

Anyone in desperate need of a handbag (like me for example) should go visit,

http://www.HandbagPlanet.com

as they are giving away 24 handbags in 24 hours!! who doesnt want a free handbag?? lol
and im so generous to share this with ALL of you.. sighhhhhh


PS: u have a higher change of winning a handbag if u spread the news and blog about it
*smiles innocently*

-bex-
(rebecca3rd@hotmail.com)

Miss Korrupt

This is a random post :)

We were talking about cars with yw driving on the way to cy's hse. Sharon, sasha and i were at the back and i casually announce,
"Oh yar sharon, I had my first bang that day".

What happened next was unexpected.

Sharon literally leaps out of her seat gob smacked, her eyes popping open as wide as saucers, jaws dropping to her knees and hands covering her mouth. She stares at me like this for about ten seconds. I stare back confused. I am slightly alarmed by the intensity of Sharon's reaction over something as commonplace as a car bang. I mean, who hasn't banged their car before right?

Then it hit me.

The word 'bang'. In Sharon's little twisted mind, she thought i meant i had had my first screw/f*** (i dont know how to sound less crude.. lol)

"Bang as in car accident la u pervert!!" i shriek back.
"OH."
Sharon falls back into her seat and instantly returns to her usual calm and composed self.

Sighhhh... What i would do to have captured sharon's expression on camera. Priceless.

-bex-

Red carpet thrown before me.

I decided to make an entrance to this blog's dashboard at 2.40 in the morning, with nothing in mind to blog about but just wanna make sure that I'm not getting erased from the memories of SWIPE. *making AN effort*

Feels like throwing in some pictures of our entire extended group from years back till now but tooo bad, not even one picture is getting uploaded.

So, now that I'm here, I wanna say that, how ugly I thought my high school memories were, they were actually not too bad. To tell the truth, it was not bad at all, just that the ending was a little sucky and sucked more when it was SPM results time. Why? Results were as bad as I thought it would be. AS I THOUGHT, CAUSE I KNEW WAYYYYY EARLIER THAT IT WAS GONNA BE BAD AND I DID NOTHING ABOUT IT!! HAH! Anyhow, I'm doing much better now in college, so no complaints! And, bye!!

-hweiping

sorry, shafa!

sorry for posting this up now only.

brought shafa out to celebrate her b'day on monday, which is a day before her day! sharon and i gave her a photo frame with our picture as present. err, let the pictures do the talking la k. hee

i know i look like i got possesed.

Birthday Girl. Take care when you're in melaka!


AND GUESS WHOSE IS THIS! AHAH

jean's momoe!! damn cute.

-ywen-

BBQ

I am being forced to write about our friday bbq at chai yin's house (as usual) because the swipe members are sooo malas to blog about it.. Dahlah dont wana go out with me this thursday, then make me write this post *merajuk* Sighhh, but being the wonderful friend that I am, I will sacrifice my time and energy and creative brain juices to do it ;D YOU GUYS OWE ME!! Since im new to all this im just gonna post the pictures and let them speak for themselves :)

Before the BBQ-ing started; chicken chunks and capsicum kebabs, meatballs, sausages, lamb...

The drink- blackcurrent juice and sprite and im not sure wat else ;D

Chai Yin's generous boyfriend Julian who belanja-ed us all the food and everything... Lucky cy.. Hahah


Everyone making their grand entrance ;D
Marina
Jay doing her catwalk and hp

Sharon (and her trademark snobby xpression.. lol) and sasha
and me :) Daymnn, why my mouth open like that?

Cy and Julian

Crispy honey coated chicken wings being barbequed (YUM!)


This were the deliciously buttery melt-in-your-mouth sweet potatoes
Making sure the wings dont burn while sharon is busy smsingFinally ready to be devoured hot of the grill! Yay! Ok i know it may not look very tempting in the pictures but damn it was good :D
yw and sharon

yw n marina
Yar, make me sit at the end where there is no light so no one can see me rite... thanx larr

Me and my kebab.. hehe.. yee wen made me pose, im usually not this self-shiok *ahemm*
hp's masterpiece
Only God noes what sharon was trying to do.. sighh
Hahaha! both getting high over the smoke
Heyy big spender!! Spendddddd.. a little time on me ;D
Cy got horny and began licking the spoon

Caught hp busy adjusting her hair spikes

Me and sasha dear


Ok guys, we have to take Marina out to some beach holiday for some serious suntanning ;)